Final soon

3 days left for final
it seem like all tips have been given
no much worry for study

semester 5 end soon
new year coming
and also time to say good bye soon
time pass fast but long
anything can happen in next second when we didn't notice

life =D

See back your old post

think back what had happen in the past

so many unexpected thing happen

it is a bit scary but would it happen again?

answer is, if I think it would happen then it really would happen

the past proved the fact

haha

fate

-_-

我的童年到底都是怎样过的

才会创造现在这样可怕的我

连我自己有时都怕到自己

前面的路，有些已看不清楚

这样下去好吗

wish there have a book or story that can guide me

^_^

recently

最近时不时都会感到失落 /.\

不懂为什么会这样的

我不想这样勒 ><

几时才能恢复正常啊

present

早已知道你还放不下那时候的事

you can't blame it all on yourself

you didn't did anything wrong

there have no any measurement can say you are wrong

if you keep going like that

I don't feel you can walk out from there

as I have said before,you can't do anything on the past already but you have the ability to change/avoid the same thing happen twice and treat yourself goodly

it was really useless you think on that way

by the right you can more cheerful,freedom n etc

proud of you of the night

you done it very well

knew that you were just tiring

have your enough of the sleep time

haha g.b.y

rest

Suddenly feel very tired

tired of see those thing

should have a break for self

rest the mind 

clear those messy brain 

restart the brain

start analysis back all those thing

and hope to have a better solution

weird night

There still got something that you don't know (ps,you don't ever need to know XD)

some time it is not just that simply as you have said (cause you don't know the story behind)

I only can say you worry too much 

any way thank you for your words

I got my own plan and that is my choice 

**for old lady XD

dislike your 吊人胃口 d words

-.- always like that when emo ba

lol,all also because of me

recently very 感性 ba

wish you stay healthy always XD

night~

fate

Hope it won't make problem out

is fate also all those thing

only can follow d way continue the walk

hope all of my friend can pass those terrible fate

with successfully =D

XD

有回不来的感觉

是情绪所影响的错觉吧

压力大吧

或者

都是借口吧

farewell

Every thing going to end by tonight

new beginning will be coming

busy life going to come too

no more relax time

tension,tired and trouble will increase

chatting, playing and fun will decrease by the time

life is like that

I'm apologize if I have said wrong anything or bother you in the period of your holiday

hope I won't going to be like last time any more /.\

=)

late sleep

The time I sleep at my home was always that late

it start since I 13 ba

reason is....lonely ba

cause there are always no one accompany me play or what since I small

always everyday run out of home go find friends play

if friends are not around then will alone go here and there

until time back home eat dinner

/.\ that's all is before primary graduate

how pity am I last time/.\

luckily after in secondary then no more that kind of naughty XD

time have change from normally morning class(primary) to afternoon class(secondary)

so there have no more time for me to go out but only left night 

from there start I always late sleep to waste the night time XD

then slowly get look more mature than other ba

only look.. XD

think d thing more than other also /.\

and keep find thing to think to waste out my time XD

what a stupid way, make self tiring only

maybe some day in future will get mental problem also not hard XD

brother's and sister's age are big than me many

the distance of age is the reason I less communication with them

but now are better a bit, cause all are growth very big 

I'm gonna step in adult in 2 more years to reach same level with them

cold night was hard to sleep

that is the reason I late sleep i think..XD

/.\ said so much nonsense thing out

The great time was always with you

thank you from inside of the heart~ <3 div="div">

thank for the past few years and thank for now o.o just thank only XD

it mean a lot for me when there have you =)

wish you always have a warm bed with you every night, s* t*** i* w**'t l*** m*.

XD

ps: actually wish you won't saw this /.\

primary classmate gathering

It have been 7 years already since last time we still in the same class

Great that today can met some of them

all are going further study and some of them are working

good gathering are always end faster

=D

as what I think that

getting more problem pop out recently

as what i expected 

feel tired of this all 

thought can have some rest at here

is me think too much 

holiday

Finish final exam 2 days ago

wonder how many pointer I can get this time

hope it is more than last semester

this time holiday will got what event?

still don't know yet

hope it will be a nice and relax holiday

=) 

??@@

Recently busy doing all the assignment that have been given a long duration to do

Finally all has been present and pass up 

feel free a bit but final is near the corner now

should prepare for final now =)

student welfare was not been protected now

student allowance has been reduce

and increase of stress

-.- which side should I consider first?

Ashita hareru kana

This is a song from the drama "Proposal Daisakusen"

a very meaningful song for me

the story of the drama was really touch me
a great japan drama

wish to have a fairy pop out and give me a chance to go back past to change that time's situation

but it only will happen on wedding ceremony if it's in the drama

the moral of the story that I get from this drama is fight for the thing that you want and don't let it REGRET you in the future.

Bad day

Unlucky day,this early morning around 1am

me and my another friend's laptop have been stolen by 4 melay guys

already report police

unexpected condition will happen

lost all the documents inside

no going to class today

cause don't have any sides that can present

why God treat me like this?

what thing else I still will lost next?

lost of many thing already included .....

did it mean God call me start from zero?

hope it can found back

no other thing that i wish already

=(

生病了

最近开始生病了

也最不喜欢生病，但如果是在家乡的话就不一样

因为那里有个安心的床，温馨的家和熟悉的城市

那样就没那么痛苦

最近学业都没那么容易读了

又给这么多的assignments，简单的还好但全部都不简单啊

希望全都顺利完成

感情上，我只能说

我有段长期时间真的忽略了你太多

我只能在这跟你再说声对不起

我拼不是只想和你做朋友而已
但现段只能这么做
以没有以前的那种能力
现段只有做好，朋友的份就好了
更进一步的发展，以后再说吧
现在并不适合谈情说爱的时候
除非.....

=)

KEEP IT UP!!!

Memories can be very beautiful but it depend on how you think of it.

Future is a time that we don't know what will happen on next seconds or next step.

Live happily is the main role in the life

and I saw you done it greatly and getting more pretty now

proud to saw it..keep it up girl!!

It seen like got a period of time I didn't update my another blog

Wish to have some time and thing on there.. 

Sorry if I have use wrong words or wrong description in all the post..

Cause my english level still in learning process.

Wish to have someone can teach me

haiz~

Really dislike the people that broke the promise..

Really DISLIKE!!

I really don't know how come you guys already hold for 3 months but now start smoke back

speechless for you two

Now a day getting more lazy

get stress of many thing

haiz, need to done all the thing before can get proper rest now

mess of life now, need to arrange back the lifestyle by slowly

GET ALL THE WORK DONE!!

A night full of Japanese food(11.6.12)

Having a japanese dinner buffet just now

really full because before that already eat once rice 3 hours ago

dislike the taste of oysters, sea snail and the sashimi

feel disgusting and don't think next time want try it again.

Dream of you(10.06.12)

It been so long didn't saw you in my dream

but why today morning will?

does it want tell me anything?

or just let me aftertaste?

hope got someone can tell me the answer..

:'l

"爱一个人，很多时候实际上是习惯了这个人"

我不是习惯有人陪/和我聊天，而是习惯陪/和我聊天的人是你

因为对象是你，我才能比较放心的展现内心的我

Miss you 咖啡..

Funny morning

Just now, before I go out eat with friends

my housemate bought back 2 bottles of alcohol (33% and 40%)

and I only drink 1 time then out to eat

after I back house again

saw all of them sleep already

and got 1 more sleep in the toilet with toilet light on

lol,really feel very funny 

after I finish bath and another friend just back from reachout

he told me that still left another bottle of alcohol in the refrigerator

at that moment, I laugh more loud 

them only drink 1 bottle then can make them look like that

really can not accept it

hahaha!!

Short vacation at Perak

30 May(Wed) weather: raining in the morning
Around 8.45am start car
JC was the driver and other 3 more persons in the car
that's was me, ws, and berry
raining's highway was really hard to drive
the reason go to Perak is JC want go to ask about her fortune-telling
it take around 2+ hours to reach there

after that then we go to eat sea food
call a steam fresh fish, 1kg steam fresh prawn(around , fried soft shell crab and a plate of dry fried "lala"
it seem like got 2 kind of the sea foods I can't eat in the list
but.. I also eat it
haha
only eat one prawn and 3 pieces of crab meat (the prawn got a bit big, that why I want to eat)
the reason I can't eat that 2 kind of foods is because I get allergy of prawn and crab
but this time it seem like get little effect only
does it mean I can eat prawn and crab already next time??
not sure about that yet

after that then go to visit "Muzium Kapal Korek"
a ship that operation to get "bijih timah" in long time ago
now only left history

after that then go to Kampar to find "roti ayam"

bread outside and inside is curry chicken
really eat very full there, because 2+ hours ago just finish the sea food
and this was start at 6.30pm and finish at 8pm
outside already dark

on the way back, the driver was me
the road was dark and don't have road light
felt scare to drive back and with this kind of eyes
really very careful to drive
at high way more scary, no road light, high speed and saw some lorry accident
maximum of the speed in the busy high way I drive was 140+ km/hrs
lucky it was safely drive back

thanks god that I have a nice vacation on that day
wish you were there =)

25 May(fri) night

Going to KLIA just now

go to send my ex college CEO and 2 more friends 

them are going to Sarawak to celebrate Gawai festival 

inside the KLIA saw a person look alike YOU

it really scare me a while and feel happy a while

BUT that was not YOU.

On the way back 

I think maybe is cause of the person just now

let me distraction when driving back just now

I didn't drive like usually and also not so focus

until want happen accident 

but thank god, reach home safely 

and apologize for those who sit in the car.

Time

"Time can heal a broken heart,

but it can also break a waiting heart".

so

which one are you now?

a broken heart or a break's waiting heart?

=)

busy week

Yesterday start work already..

work for 2 weeks part time

so will be busy on this 2 weeks

/.\ research topic still haven't think

don't know I can done it greatly or not

next week saturday start holiday again

only 1 week but feel like very waste of that holiday

nothing special can do in that holiday

haiz~ 

=)

time,sure can make a person change but it take duration 

as you said can't look back anymore cause all is pain

but in my opinion although past is really pain but what you can do is look to the front

cause only left future that you can make change of the past and improve yourself

I at here only can say that much cause if more than that you also don't like to see(maybe you don't want to see it anymore already from that day start)

I believe you, you sure can do it 

cause you really lucky that you have a lot of friends will accompany you to pass through all the problem

dislike me, I don't have much friends that could help me when I get in any problem

all need to face it by my own every time

the aim for now is concentrate on study and wish you were the same too

Lastly,I wish my mum will have a great Happy Mother Day in home for this year

=D 

this week

Don't have anything special happen in this week

except on tuesday, you blocked me from each account 

I  didn't expect this would happen on me until that stage 

but what I can do with it? 

The answer is: Nothing else except accepted what had happened

Beside that, it looks like this week I don't have what appetite

eat what sure can't finish it, maybe is cause of my teeth 

gum wound getting more worse now but nothing can do with it 

try to get tired of my body

to stop.... stop what? o.O I also not sure why I do so now

-.- get no point what want to write already

or maybe is got many that shouldn't write out..

midnight

Having 2 and half glasses of tiger at pub just now

and now

suffer of alcohol allergy

having a hard breathe and tired

but what else yet I can do to minimize it?

It's only think of you to let me feel better and let me keep the pub girl far away

=)

Haiz..

=.= It seem like only sad post that I had post

Izit mean that don't have any happy one?

or maybe it doesn't mean happy for me?

confuse of what is happy from deep of heart now

always only follow people smile or laugh but don't know the reason 

everything have become complicated when human getting older

Got few time when I face the problem that I can't solve it or worry about something

I really want go have a nap and after awake I hope that

all the problem have solve or all the worry have gone 

but it's only a dream that everyone wish it will happen but in reality is wont happen

Wish to have a peaceful rest
if it is required my life to exchange it
I wish to do so
and
hope you happy always
=)

I....I...know I am wrong now =(

All happen in so suddenly,I still haven't prepare yet to see what the answer I would give later.

It seem like all of those day I have misunderstand her and her friend.

I really want to apologize to all of you.

I know that in you people eyes that I was not a good guy, I only know to hurt her except that I don't have any good about myself.

I have lost in the road that on the way go to you there.

It's really suffering, but there has no one on the road that can guild me to you there.

I only can by my own take adventure to go there.

But now I have saw a bright light come out from one of the road.

It look like the light is guiding me now, it like want to tell me that this road is the way that can go to your side.

I have left nothing except believe in it.

Hope that this road really is straight ahead to you there.

Only can hope so now. 

Open mind

Luckily that I have open your acc to search what I think it happen just now.

Its let me feel more light now.

Finally u put me down already, in the right time u do so cause in this time I haven't improve to the level that I can alone face you without any panic.

Really panic just now,never thought this would happen 1 day before my birthday.

I now really wonder that what thing again would end 1 day before some special date.It happen twice with the same person's decide.

Luckily I get hurt by her once before,but in that time really seriously hard to get out from the dark shadow.It take me 1 week + to get out from there.But I don't know when I get in that shadow again and make more worse thing out and now it get better more.

Now,I already get out from the shadow that don't have me inside.

I have realize that what I want is a reality but not a shadow.A reality that with hope and no more shadow.

Time would let all of us growth up and it tell us to learn from past so that future won't happen the same thing again.

The promise....I don't know that you still want to count it or not.But it is depend on you, if u don't want I won't blame you.

I would follow what I promise before till the day that I think maybe no more hope for it.

New life to go with new challenges... =D

this afternoon>.<(16.11.10)

this afternoon me and my friends going to 青山庙
and we plan this at last week already
after reach there
let me think back last time I say want to bring her go to there
but at last cannot bring her go cause of something
but if want bring also cannot already cause something happen...TT
but nevermind already
if next time got chance must would bring her go to every way that I can bring
write until here let me think back one word that my friend say
that is "hair"
cause about that word I got something thing want to tell her
but at last forget already...TT
haiz,really old already me
really always forget important thing>~<
anyway,nevermind le...
so we all go there praying
haha,maybe today me lucky ba
get tiok good 签
it say about you want what then you can get what you want
but I don't think so lo
cause I want you come back to my side again
but that was impossible one

Broken dream

Everything come to a very strange way,i never know about it but got a strange feeling from last week start.

No miss one day the feeling come out, more long then the feeling more strong until i can't force in my exam.

I don't care anymore how the result it is, just let it pass.

Early of this year I still think about what the present I want to give her for this year.

But I think no need anymore already, but if want also never I think. =)

Before that, I have think before how our future should go thru.

But the first thing is pass her parent permission first.

Sorry that I not as u expect that I would done anything that like a couple.

Just cause of you are ONLY my friend now, so there don't have anything energy that push me to do what u expect for.

But there are only left hope for me to continue face you from that day start until now.

Can't imagine that how stubborn is me.