Open mind

Luckily that I have open your acc to search what I think it happen just now.

Its let me feel more light now.

Finally u put me down already, in the right time u do so cause in this time I haven't improve to the level that I can alone face you without any panic.

Really panic just now,never thought this would happen 1 day before my birthday.

I now really wonder that what thing again would end 1 day before some special date.It happen twice with the same person's decide.

Luckily I get hurt by her once before,but in that time really seriously hard to get out from the dark shadow.It take me 1 week + to get out from there.But I don't know when I get in that shadow again and make more worse thing out and now it get better more.

Now,I already get out from the shadow that don't have me inside.

I have realize that what I want is a reality but not a shadow.A reality that with hope and no more shadow.

Time would let all of us growth up and it tell us to learn from past so that future won't happen the same thing again.

The promise....I don't know that you still want to count it or not.But it is depend on you, if u don't want I won't blame you.

I would follow what I promise before till the day that I think maybe no more hope for it.

New life to go with new challenges... =D

this afternoon>.<(16.11.10)

this afternoon me and my friends going to 青山庙
and we plan this at last week already
after reach there
let me think back last time I say want to bring her go to there
but at last cannot bring her go cause of something
but if want bring also cannot already cause something happen...TT
but nevermind already
if next time got chance must would bring her go to every way that I can bring
write until here let me think back one word that my friend say
that is "hair"
cause about that word I got something thing want to tell her
but at last forget already...TT
haiz,really old already me
really always forget important thing>~<
anyway,nevermind le...
so we all go there praying
haha,maybe today me lucky ba
get tiok good 签
it say about you want what then you can get what you want
but I don't think so lo
cause I want you come back to my side again
but that was impossible one

Broken dream

Everything come to a very strange way,i never know about it but got a strange feeling from last week start.

No miss one day the feeling come out, more long then the feeling more strong until i can't force in my exam.

I don't care anymore how the result it is, just let it pass.

Early of this year I still think about what the present I want to give her for this year.

But I think no need anymore already, but if want also never I think. =)

Before that, I have think before how our future should go thru.

But the first thing is pass her parent permission first.

Sorry that I not as u expect that I would done anything that like a couple.

Just cause of you are ONLY my friend now, so there don't have anything energy that push me to do what u expect for.

But there are only left hope for me to continue face you from that day start until now.

Can't imagine that how stubborn is me.